I never thought I would find myself having a break down in a Wal-Mart bathroom, but I did, and at that moment I knew I had just made a horrible mistake.
Finding out I was pregnant was not the magical moment I envisioned it to be. In fact, it was the complete opposite. I was devastated. From the beginning I had my mind set on not keeping the baby. I tried to convince myself that terminating the pregnancy was the best decision for the child. I didn’t want to bring her into a situation that was less than perfect. I thought, “how can I take care of a baby when I can barely take care of myself?”
A few days after finding out I was pregnant I visited a pregnancy center. I thought the center would provide information on abortion procedures, clinics, and such, but I was actually given information and guidance on caring for a baby, as the pregnancy center was a pro-life facility. After the visit I was still convinced to follow through with my original plan of terminating the pregnancy. I researched a tremendous amount about the abortion pill and decided that was the method I was going to use. I found an office and made my appointment.
The morning of my appointment I tried to block out all of the feelings of possibly keeping the baby. I continued to tell myself that doing this would be best. I felt heaviness in my heart the entire way there, and once I was in the office the heaviness became even stronger. The place felt so dark and morbid. It was really creepy. After being called back to the room, I was briefed on the pills and given information on what to expect for the next few days. I then took the first dose, gathered my things and left.
On my way home I stopped at Wal-Mart to get a few things. Like normal, I went to the bathroom and all at once it hit me that I had just made the worst decision ever. In that moment I knew I did not want to continue with the process of aborting my baby, but I had no idea what to do. I rushed home and jumped on my computer to see if reversing the abortion pill was even an option. All sorts of things were going through my mind, but I was determined to save my baby. Quicker than I thought, I found a site with a number to call for people who were in my exact situation and needed help reversing the pill. The lady who answered was so nice and comforting. She gathered some information and told me she would call me right back. Minutes later, she called back with the number of a doctor who would be able to help. I called the doctor and she had me come in right away. She informed me that it was imperative to start my treatment immediately. The progesterone treatment was a success and months later I welcomed my perfectly healthy baby girl to the world.
Not following through with the abortion pill has been a tremendous blessing. My little girl is the joy of my life and I truly don’t know what I would do with out her. I am so thankful God placed people in my path who were able to make sure my little angel had a chance at life.